Hello,
On December 25th, it will have been seven years---seven years since my mother died.
Her name was Gloria.
Christmas is a very happy time of year for most people. As the the day draws nigh, however, I get anxious and somber. How am I going to react this year? Am I going to be depressed or am I going to be happy? Questions and confusion swirl in my head. You see, I want Christmas to be happy again---BUT---I do not want to feel as if I've forgotten her. This is a delicate balance.
Am I man enough for this?
There is, however, a solution. I think. I hope.
On February 27th, 2011, my daughter is due to be born.
Her is name is Gloria.
I have seen her beautiful face already, and I can't shake the feeling of my mother's presence in all of this. No, I do not think my mother is being "reborn" literally in my daughter. However, I feel as if the spirit of her life and accomplishments will be honored through her. My daughter gives me hope for a better tomorrow---hope that the holidays can be joyful again. I know my mother wishes this for me.
Yet, I feel like my daughter will be treated unfairly by me. She doesn't deserve to have all this pressure. I must not fail her.
Am I man enough for this?
I guess the point of this blog is this: If your mother is alive, treasure her. Love her. Do not back-talk or disrespect her. Do not take her for granted. You will regret it someday. I do everyday. Once she is gone, nothing can fill that space. Nothing.
I feel like God is giving me a second chance---a second chance to treat Gloria the way she deserves/deserved.
